tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6499946548959843827.post1957063841660340243..comments2012-01-12T22:08:58.412-08:00Comments on Paradoxical Musings of a Chingyme: Blogfailchingymehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08298239415172756007noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6499946548959843827.post-48856101477681678162012-01-12T22:08:58.412-08:002012-01-12T22:08:58.412-08:00Hey Chingme! About the green scarf. My aunt actual...Hey Chingme! About the green scarf. My aunt actually got me the scarf, I think she found it somewhere in LA (a thrift store I believe, they have a lot of movie things).. I tried to track them online, I know that Patricia Field was selling movie replicas and I think this is one of them. They're currently not available online though :( My only suggestion would be to stalk it on ebay? I wish I could be of more help... Good luck in your search! :)nouchalinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03557321068250146526noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6499946548959843827.post-26509107401357776652011-11-03T13:47:46.763-07:002011-11-03T13:47:46.763-07:00Ching,
I hope you don't mind me commenting on...Ching,<br /><br />I hope you don't mind me commenting on this post even though this has nothing to do with it.<br /><br />It's not so much that I'm upset that it seemed that I was being lied to. Is that what everyone is focused on? Well, it was mostly just compliments that the people giving them to me didn't seem like they meant them, but honestly, it was mostly about me. I didn't mean to come off like I hated any of you, because I don't. It's about myself. Something died inside of me (in the most non-romantic way) the more time I spent there, but I intended to make clear it was my own fault. Maybe I lied to you guys, I really have no clue. But I lied to myself?<br /><br />The way I presented myself to you guys was merely the mask I also put on in reality. Depressing as it is, I've wore the mask for so long I didn't know how to take it off, even online where I could freely do it. The kind of girl that keeps her feelings bottled up? I thought I didn't deserve to release those out to such intelligent people as yourselves.<br /><br />It was rational, even if it hurt to leave.<br /><br />I'm sorry to everyone, but after your reactions, I see where I was wrong, and I won't burden you guys anymore. The reason why my post was so harsh was that some people expressed that I was cruel because I didn't say it to your faces? I apologize if I'm wrong about that, but...it's my mask at work. I can't bring myself to do that to people I don't think deserves it. But I did it once and it still doesn't feel good.<br /><br />Maybe I'm skipping out on details that would make it clear that it was a problem within myself. I'm not sure I can express it clearly at all, in fact. I try over and over, and I just hate myself more. And I shouldn't have assumed that you guys could see through me, so I change my mind like an idiot and now claim that none of you lied to me. I don't want to be specific as to what it was that set me off. Because it feels like there is a need from others for me to leave, it was all me.<br /><br />Which is why I really don't care if any of them think lowly of me. That's completely fine. At least I know it's true.<br /><br />That comment was very satisfying. I can leave knowing something will be made better with my absence. Not just the site, but me as well. Thank you, Ching ^_^<br /><br />You can delete this comment after you're done reading it if you want. It looks kinda lame being on your blog post.tynipengwynhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00610681132917096241noreply@blogger.com